16 days 6 hours 26 minutes. That's how long I made it without an anxiety attack. I think I have put off writing about each of these experiences because I'm so embarrassed that they happened, but the whole point of this blog is to show each of you that you aren't alone! So here goes. I started May with these big big goals to manage my stress and go the whole month without an anxiety attack! I had a few close calls in the first couple of days as I became frustrated with myself for not being able to work out as hard as I used to and for not being able to spend as much time with my husband. I felt like while I was trying so hard to manage my stress, I was still very aware of the stress I felt and that it was overwhelming at times. On Friday, May 15th, it was date night and I was SO excited. I had been working so hard all week to get my homework done so that I could spend the evening with my husband and was feeling a little disappointed that the evening we had planned togethe
Vulnerability is the core of shame and fear and our struggle for worthiness, but it appears that it's also the birthplace of joy, of creativity, of belonging, of love. - Brené Brown In one of my classes, we watched this TED talk by Brené Brown and it really caused me to think about vulnerability. Am I comfortable being vulnerable? Who am I comfortable being vulnerable with? Do I keep secrets from others? These questions weighed on my mind for a few days. I was already trying to be vulnerable about my anxiety, but there were plenty of other things that I didn't like talking about other people with. That's when I got a call from a friend who had read a few posts from this blog. They told me about the struggles that they were facing and I felt comfortable telling them about my struggles. The feeling I had afterward was liberating. I never thought that being vulnerable with someone could bring any other feelings besides shame and embarrassment. I don't